March

We made it through March. Tough month, tough days but we made it. Easter week is upon us and is proving to be healing as we walk through the darkness and remember the ultimate sacrifice that was made for us. Tonight's service was special and healing. These past two Easters have been hard but I had no idea that this Easter would be even more difficult. We continue to pray for peace and look towards hope and pray that next Easter we can feel joy and peace again.

We are coping and finding many different avenues for healing. We are trying hard to forgive and ignore some of the comments made with the best of intentions. Sometimes it is harder than others but as we both know, no one means to hurt us, it is just their way of attempting to be helpful. I got a few really special cards and emails this week from friends that made me smile. I know my teacher friends and others care. It really helps just knowing someone cares and hasn't forgotten about us and Sophie. They fill my heart with warmth for just a bit and it feels good.

We are healing in our own way, we are grieving in our own way. Only we know what is best for us and what is a good idea. There is no time limit or period when we will be okay, we just have to keep trying to find joy and peace in our new normal. We appreciate those who allow us to grieve and not judge us because we aren't up for an outing and respect us when they see us crying in an aisle at Target. It means more than words can tell, very comforting.

This week my favorite verse has helped me a few times when I felt the anger, bitterness and frustration well up inside of me. It helps remember that joy and peace that I am looking towards.

Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.